i sit down to write a post, i start....then stop....then start again.....then finally x out of the page.
for some reason, the words aren't flowing like they used to. i found a ton of my old journals the other day from when i lived in new york city. reading through them was the biggest trip....a good trip and a bad trip. good in that i wrote like a maniac every day...seeing the world differently then wanting to get it all out on paper. bad in that i was not in a good place most of the time. my eating was terrible...i'd have a binge...then not eat for 3 days or 'fast' to try and fix everything. i was angry..i was confused...i was trying so hard to earn the love of a god i never lost....
i was reading all these promises in the word of god...singing on stage every sunday at church with a big fake smile on my face...and dying on the inside. it's so great to document life....especially when you can go back and see how much you really have changed. it's super encouraging. i highly recommend it.
something profound...something profound...something profound....
hmmmm.....
let me have you do something. read this out loud...over yourself. put your name in the blank...and read it over yourself....
______________, i call your spirit to attention in the name of jesus of nazareth. listen wiht your spirit to god's promises in his word. 'for we are god's workmanship, created in christ jesus to do good works, which god prepared in advance for us to do.' (eph 2.10). your father has a purpose for you. i bless you with knowing your purpose as god has seen it in his heart. i bless you with being everything that god has designed you to be, because as you experience the joy of fulfilling your purpose, you will benefit, others will benefit, and the world will be blessed.' amen. (blessing your spirit: arthur burk)
xx, christa
About Me
- Christa Black
- i drink my coffee through a straw, which my dentist said would help keep my teeth whiter. i peel labels off bottles after i'm done drinking whatever's inside. i want to get married in a vineyard. i really want to get married. i think australia still might be my favorite place on earth...but i don't want to live there anymore. i sleep better on tour buses than in beds. my favorite color is blue...and i like the crazy things about the bible that no one wants to believe.
4 comments:
Neato!!!
I like how you think Christa... gosh... I always have trouble learning to Pray...or shall I say... I don't know how to... But just plugging my name onto the blank line and reading it to myself really put a smile on my face... Thanks so much!
Hope to see you soon!
Cindy
Christa - I know there must be something going on in your life worth writing about!!! Come on girl - share the wealth!
honesty, sweet honesty. i forgot about this blog because i haven't had my own computer with my favorites....and i was thinking how much i miss christa's blogs....then voila! sweet remembrance
Hi! I'm from Brazil, I just got to know your work, with 'God loves Ugly', and I loved it. I've shown it to a friend, who found out you have a blog. I loved¹²³ this post and I thank you for it. God bless!
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